City Lights

Well I suppose I could review my weekend in Calgs.
So friday I drove down, and to be completely honest, Highways cause my brain to wonder into places where it should not go..and dark highways are no exception. The only thing keeping me sane was the light pounding bass, and crystal clear vocals, compliments of YOUAREAWEAPON, combined with the slow, constant flow of smoke thanks to my good friend peter jackson.
How was I to have any expectations. I was coming for a sole reason..One I kept hidden to avoid guilt from my second party.
As I held the wheel steady on that dark path, which leads to endless possibilities, There was a single thought on my mind. You. Everything surrounding me kept pounding the image of you into my head.
What seemed like days later, I finally arrived. Cracked a beer, and prepared myself for a night full of adventure.
Loco Lou's sounded like a good idea, until I peered into the window and saw a copius amount of abercrombie/aeropostale polo's, almost overwhelming my wax denim/cotten vneck clad self.
Once I got in the doors and saw that they had Big Rock on tap, My eyes light up like the 4th of July.

One Pint down, and I was then introduced to a shit-disturber...FUCKMYLIFE. Not only was I allergic to 2/3rds of the ingredients to this shot, my worst enemy (Sambuca) a.k.a the ONLY liquor that triggers my emotions like a fucking on button, was present.

Luckily enough, I avoided balling my eyes out, and somehow made it home in one piece.

Then, the highlight of my week. Nothing is better then falling asleep next to someone.
Regardless of your relation to that person, or how either feel about the other, It simply turned everything going through my mind into a positive.

Then, saturday...you and I slept until 5. Fuck our lives haha.
We visited my cousin, and then back to bed.
I knew I needed to make a stop to remember a friend...and We embarked on the journey to visit her memorial.
We took a wrong turn, and ended up infront of my first home..where I was introduced to the world of love, hate, family, foes, and beauty in destruction.

This opened my eyes. and in my mind, I realized, that no matter what wrong decisions you make in life, You are NEVER as far away from home as you think.

Now, we passed a red lobster, and decided a dinner date was needed. So we got back to sait, cleaned up and drove to BP's on 17th.
After a nice, quiet dinner, we made the trip home.
As an ender to our visit, we cuddled up, and watched Juno.
Then I woke up this morning and left to say goodbye to my father at the airport.
I was pulling out of the parking lot, and Realized I still hadnt seen ashlynn's plantation..
So I made my way to fish creek, and there it was..staring at what was left for you to be remembered by, made me cry and scream louder then ever before. The pain brought me to my knees.

When I was finally physically and emotionally stable enough to walk away, I got into my car, and decided I needed the longest route home possible. I finally made it to the highway, and then you offered the one thing I needed the most..condolance. So I came back, had a smoke, and another hug goodbye. And then It was done. Tears fell from my eyes the moment i closed my car door. Too much at One time to handle.

All in alll..this weekend did nothing but clear my head, and remind me that there are important things in my life, that I need to keep close.


All I have left for now is, wow.
and to someone, you will never know this is to you...
I want is you to notice me.
Even just for a single, solitary moment.